Illustration by Ana Novaes
Take note of who or what you have in your corner, seen or unseen. Thank them.
As we unfold, as we allow and try to heal, as we look at what no longer serves us well, what matters most is how we process and mindfully move through anything that comes our way. To come back to a place of equanimity so we can make choices and decisions that feel grounded, authentic, and conscious, this is how we can do the best we can. With this said, we can't do any of this without leaving space for grief, regret, blind sides, "oh shit" moments, while loving ourselves through all of it so we can rebirth and begin again.
I don't know if you believe in the idea of having guides, or angels, or totems, or God, Goddess, or the "I AM" presence within. Maybe you meditate 3 hours a day, or sit in a prayer circle, or go to church (on Zoom) on Sundays. Whatever it is, if anything, the practice of surrendering to the unknown feels like something we've been doing our entire lives anyway, no matter how much control we think we have. Surrender is a lesson we are learning every single day, and by making this practice conscious, then we can stop, look behind us, and see how far we've actually come. Perhaps we can be gentler with ourselves, and with others, recognizing how much we've actually had to let go, lose, fight for, endure, forgive, and love, just to get right here.
I take comfort in the deep trust and intuitive sense that I am never alone. When we stop needing to see to believe, then a deeper sense develops, something entirely different, something I believe is innate in all of us. Take note of who or what you have in your corner, seen or unseen. Thank them. Nourish them with your love and gratitude, then, once you feel centered, turn and pass on the generosity of love and kindness to someone else. My guess is someone will need it. Lean in, pay attention, and you will know.